God did not make me funny – or quick-witted.    I’m one of those people who thinks of what they SHOULD have said hours after the conversation took place.  I am not organized nor am I especially disciplined when it comes to time management (I will use the ‘I’m creative’ excuse on this one.)  I am not an “academic,” but I will sure study what I’m interested in so that I can grow!  I do not have all the scriptures memorized, but I love the Lord and know that I would not be where I am without his guidance.  I am definitely not a lot of things, and that’s okay with me.

I have been thinking about this very thing a lot lately – about the different gifts that people posses and what their purposes are in this time on earth.  Isn’t it funny that, when we are thinking about something and digging into the Word, God takes his “divine highlighter” (to use a term from Pricilla Shirer) to it and it pops off the page and into your face?

This morning, as I was doing my study, this quote from Beth Moore stood out to me…

“She knew who she was.  She knew who she wasn’t.”

I am extremely close to turning the big 4-0, and it has been just recently that I have started owning who I am.  Not only that, but I have realized that I am not going to have all the cool gifts my friends have.  What is even cooler, is that I don’t want to have them!

If I had to be all those things, I would be exhausted.  Heck, I’m exhausted already!

It was in my written-out prayers that I really started asking for direction…for why I am here…for me to be used and for me to realize what my gifts are and what my purpose truly is.

I cannot tell you how hard it was for me to say publicly for the first time, “I am a writer.”

I could never “own” that title before.  Was it because not enough people read my blog?  Was it because I wasn’t a ‘published’ author?  Was it because I felt irrelevant and inadequate?

Yup.

But it was also because I believed all the doubts and insecurities that were plaguing me.  I invested too much time into worrying what others would think of me when I would answer the “So, what do you do?” question with “I’m a writer.”

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What happened after I said it out loud?  I believed it.  And other people believed it.  A speaker from the leadership training I am currently in told me “I love it that own your writing!  That is the first step to being a recognized writer.”

So, my questions to YOU are, who are you trying to be that you’re not?  What are your gifts (and yes, you DO have gifts)?  Have you prayed for direction?

And most importantly – What is it that you are believing about yourself that is keeping you from BEING WHO YOU ARE MEANT TO BE?

Own who you are!

Blessings, Y’all!  😉

Rox

 

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