So many of you have supported me, cheered me on, agreed with me (or disagreed with me), or have just been along for the ride while I have been on my fitness journey these past three years. Wow – three years! It’s really not that long in the grand scheme of things, but I can’t believe it’s been three years since I sat crying in my closet because I realized how big I had gotten. I can’t believe three years has passed since I ran circles around my living room while working out to Jillian Michaels on my Wii. In three years I have accomplished more than I ever knew was possible…
I went from being a person who thought she hated to run, to being that girl who ran a 5K – and eventually ran a half marathon. I went from someone who just wanted to finish a 90-day workout program to a woman who was picked to go out to California and actually be IN that workout program! Long gone is the girl who made excuses not to make it to an early morning workout, and enter the girl who became the group instructor for that same early morning class. I have surprised a lot of people, including my family and myself. It’s been a crazy, fun ride that has been full of highs and lows and it has taught me more than I ever thought it could.
My journey is far from over, but as you have probably noticed, my focus has changed – or, more appropriately, it has broadened.
I have loved being a Team Beachbody Coach the last couple years. I have been able to help people reach their goals and I have met wonderful people who continue to inspire me. However, toward the end of last year, when I started pouring my heart and soul into making myself a better person for my family; I noticed my Beachbody business slipping. I struggled with what I should do and even asked people to pray about it. I hadn’t given up on it, but it felt like it was falling further and further out of my grasp. The hardest thing for me was that I felt like I was letting people down. People who had asked for my help and motivation were feeling like I had given up on them – and that was the last thing I wanted.
I received a phone call from one of my friends who had prayed about my situation. What she told me was that I “was helping people and doing something wonderful for women…” and that I “was inspiring”; but if the Beachbody business was coming between me and my husband or causing any sort of difficulty at home, then I would know what to do. I tried to tell myself that there was no problem there, when I knew the truth.
You see, it’s not that my husband hasn’t supported me – on the contrary, he has been my biggest cheerleader! The problem was me. If you read my post “The Lie”, then you know that other things had become priority in my life and this little business I was pursuing was one of those things. I was so focused on becoming a success there, that I had forgotten that my true success story was my family.
Still, I struggled with an answer. Then came my shoulder issues. Hmmmm. There it was. Do you think I realized what God was doing there? NO! I JUST NOW did while I was writing this very paragraph!!! Goodness.
Everything had already been set in motion. I had encouraged girls from Turbo class to go get certified – and they did just a couple weeks ago! My shoulder got worse the week after they got trained and it became very evident that I could no longer teach. Ready or not, they were going to take over for me. I passed the torch (or the mic) over and although they were telling me it wasn’t “over” for me, it felt pretty final. Only God knows what the future holds for me in that department, but I want everyone to know how much I have LOVED teaching my classes!!! It wasn’t always perfect – well, it was never perfect – but, I learned so much and was able to open the door for others to experience what an amazing feeling it is to help others live healthier lives! If you have ever thought about becoming a group fitness instructor, I encourage you to get trained!
I will continue to share my fitness story with those who want to hear it. I will continue to offer help to people when they reach out for it. I will continue on as a Team Beachbody Coach, but not in the capacity that I have been.
You see, God has pushed me to pursue my true passion and I will give glory to Him in doing so! Starting a book was actually a “Push Goal” of mine in 2011 and sadly, it never happened. (Although, I know that it was all in God’s timing). My heart wasn’t in the right place, but I can say with certainty that it is now! What an amazing feeling it is to finally figure out your true purpose! I hope all of you can experience the feeling of fulfillment I have at this moment in my life.
I am so thankful to each of you for the encouragement you have given me and I want you to know that it has never gone unnoticed! I hope that you will stay with me, because this is not the end – it is only the beginning! Thank You, Thank You, Thank You!